Today is kinda one of my worst days lah.. I think the first major problem is because my nose seriously minta penyepak. And second is because the moment I stepped into le house, I was told that dad was admitted to the hospital which literally makes me sad and idk how to describe the feeling but genuinely I was just afraid if I loose him :/

Backie ;)

So basically today Teacher Riza asked me and Putri to carry the books for her to 4K. As soon as I step in, I dont know their specific names because I was embarrassed to turn around but the boys were like "Diana Shipudden. Diana Shipudden" all the time which makes me think that Twitter is a very public place where everyone knows what you do and what you think. And I share every single thing on my Tumblr but yeah my Tumblr is somehow problematic sikit because I cant upload photos anymore and a few friends had found out about my Tumblr which is obviously suck because I freakingly need privacy :p So yeah, Im back to Blogger. Nobody actually knows about my blog. Muahahaha I mean like, they do know about it but they dont actually memorise the url and I told them that I was an inactive blogger so yeah. The only one who (maybe) memorise my blog is probably him.. But yeah.. I dont think that one day, he woke up and just think "I should check Diana's blog today" ha-ha no. That is so far than possible ^^ Btw Abang Rusydi gave me Rm2 as duit raya hahaha how cute 

Hi hello um well my sore throat is getting worst. Like seriously. Pedih gila nak mati. And Im not lying. I cant even talk ishhh and yeah my voice macam apa je. So just now masa tuition everyone keep asking me why do I look pale and so the opposite side of energetic. All this while Wafi and Norman keep passing me Mentos and 100plus and Clorex (Idk how to spell) so basically me and Rachy were most probably sugar high kot that's why we talk a lot and just laugh at everything hahaha Im not even sure whether everything is really funny or we're the only one who think that way muahahahaha okay okay actually masa kat tuition Wafi pulled my hair and said "Weh ni rambut kau" pastu dia macam tarik panjang panjang nak tahu how long my hair is so I was like "Bengong lah kau ni. Kau tak tau malu ke? Eee blah sekarang" Genuinely mad and pissed off. Urgh. Silly Annoying Wafi -.-

Hi, hello.... Bye

Umph hello! As for now Im getting ready for tuition. Not really feeling well. Migraine, sore throat and my nose lah as usual. The problem is, I dont really know what to talk about anymore. I mean like, the only person that I can act natural is with Putri, Dina, Syadni, Alini, Salma and Yasmin. That's all. Well I dont know why. And Im not even sure if I love him or not. I mean like, I do love him but I keep denying cause it's probably not worth it. Dude, he doesnt even care. I wonder if you actually stalk me every single day. Because if you do, you're kindly hurting your own self. I dont have the guts to stalk you, you know. Cause I dont want to get hurt. But still, I still got hurt because you arent here.. with me but who cares urghh nobody cares and perhaps I should stop caring too. Somebody teach me how to uncare and unlove someone who used to mean the world to us? I can stop thinking and start ignoring. But I can never stop caring about you... 

F you, Directioners

Im sorry for cursing. I hate cursing so much and I dont really curse but this thing really is getting on my nerves. Tbh I freakingly hate those effing stupid Directioners urghhh sumpah boodooooo eeee (soooorryyy) Fyi Red Album keluar masa 22 October 2012. Harry Styles and Taylor Swift punya relay confirmed masa 22 December 2012. Exactly 2 months after Red. How the hell lagu 'I Knew You Were Trouble' is about Harry Styles? She thanked her ex (John Mayer) for inspiring that song. Bukan Harry Styles. Because dorang break up 10 September. And Taylor kata IKYWT lagu last dia buat untuk that album. And you're telling me Taylor is a whore? Aha, mirror yourself lah gila. Kau tu bukan setakat whore. Tak waras pula tu eee dah lah suka 1D. Gayy. Eeee. And if you're reading Taylor's tabloid and believing every single thing they wrote about it. You should read Harry's tabloids too. That clearly shows how a total loser you are.  Stupid people. Stupid Directioners.

Today

I have no words to describe today. I mean like. It's not one of the best days and obviously not one of the worst days but today is just.. today  XD  Okay. So. I'll explain. You guys figure it out sendiri lah  :p  1. Kita rombak kelas pastu me, Syad, Dina and Put were in the same class which basically made my day at the first place  2. Tak ada cikgu masuk the whole day so as usual lah en, kitaorang macam gelak kuat gila bapak  &  tidur  &  main air  &  gaduh gaduh  3. Kitaorang stay back sampai tertidur dekat library pastu main air kat toilet Hahahaha  4. We made an agreement untuk compete dalam post trial ni Muahahahaha. Well maybe you guys tak faham kenapa harini special but yeah. Just, Im happy because finally all of us reunited after a long time terpaksa seperate. I miss you guys so much :') 

16th of August

I didnt have a good sleep last night. Slept at 0330 or something and woke up at 0737. So today is going to be a big day for me. Im going to confess to him. No matter in what form sekali pun. I just have to. I'll stop tipu diri sendiri cause it doesnt seems to work anymore. I love him.. But, does he feel the same? And I realized it was 16th of August. 16TH OF AUGUST! Man... It was his birthday. I was taken aback when I realized about that... I might ruin his birthday if I confess today. But I cant hold it anymore longer. Im afraid I might lose the chance. Is this even fated? Me and him? Like, after a sudden I decided to confess tomorrow and it turned out to be his birthday. Oh my god.