My credit expired today so I cant really reply his message. But yeah, even if my credit tak expired pun, I dont think I will actually reply because um I dont know what to say. I mean like how am I going to respond to that? "Okay weh. Thanks" that's all? But what if I reply a little bit longer? Im afraid he'll see it in a different way, for example "Okay weh. Thanks. Kalau kau kisah, kau orang first wish. Credit aku expired ah semalam" 

Happy Birthday to who? Me?

Yeah. It's ma freaking birthday nigga. Well um he's the first one yang wish but dia guna "weh" and "ko" and I just ..................... got friend-zoned. But whatever. Izz was the second one and later on terus banyak gila orang wish on Twitter, kat dm, kat Line, kat Wechat, and some even made me a video XD Im just so excited. But yeah I reached the tweet limit so it's kinda sucks. Urghh. And my bestfriends werent there. I dont know what are they up to but pfft yeah. I just know that today is going to be asdfghjkl. Even though he did but idk I dont feel anything anymore. The fact that he's not in Malaysia kinda makes me feel a little bit more happier. Idk why. Im not happy but atleast Im not sad. I miss him but, I wont let him ruin my so called special day. But yeah, I cant believe Im crying........ 

What time do you usually go to sleep?

I. Dont. Know. I mean like, I dont have any solid answer. But what I can tell is after 2 o'clock lah. And perhaps tonight I'm not going to sleep kot? Because for now, I feel like no one actually gives a damn shit about what you think and how you really feel. All that matters is you, and only you. Im listening to Story of my life by Two Worlds. I dont know why am I even mentioning that but yeah whatever I am so pissed off by everyone haha lol not really. Im just idk. I hate myself. I will always be the one who loves someone with all my heart and yeah whatever. Someday, Im going to find someone who is worth all of this pain. Maybe aku memang bukan siapa siapa kot in this world? Im always going to be that one person yang invisible je. Even kat rumah. Idk. Oh my god I hate this feeling T^T I just.. I dont want to cry. 

What is the most important thing in being a good friend?

Idk. A lot of things maybe? Trust. Honesty. Patience. I cant say much but do what you want people to do to you. I think all those good qualities are very important. Anddd I would love to if my friends are a little bit more macam idk how to explain tapi macam haha haih susah gila nak put into words tapi macam more caring ah. Yes. Caring. Finally dapat juga word tu haha. Well yeah, as I was saying. My friends macam lebih care pasal their own personal things lah so yeah whatever haha. I kinda need them so badly right now because umm Im kinda sad and yeah pfft. I need them to comfort me. Tomorrow is going to be a big day for me so yeah, I want them here. Tipu lah kalau taknak dia (pidot) ada kat sini. But atleast I had my friends is more than enough kot. Tapi entahlah. I felt lonely more than ever!

What are the things you want to avoid in a relationship?

Most probably break up. Becauusee, for me lah kan. I think it's healthy when a couple fights. But when it comes to break up. lol. I think that is the worst part ever. Tbh relationship without fighting memang boring gila nak mati. I swear. Because you guys will be like ''happy'' all the time but actually no. Memanglah happy but somehow boring gila nak mati. Well that is my opinion and my experience lah. Idk bout you guys but yeah, a relationship with any ups and downs is a total asdfghjkl

Helloooo! I miss my blog so much. Since I've been gone for so long. Im sure there's a lot of catch up to do :p My blog is somehow very special to me because no one actually read it so I can just write whatever I want. I dont have to freaking hide anything from anyone *tears of joy* Umm what to say ah? Virtually, Im happy in school but not at home. It's just. You know when you love someone for too long, it naturally became a part of you. I tried. But it was hard. And I would like to thank Izz for everything. I know you find me annoying with all those sad stories haha but yeah, thank you so much for always being there xoxo

Today is kinda one of my worst days lah.. I think the first major problem is because my nose seriously minta penyepak. And second is because the moment I stepped into le house, I was told that dad was admitted to the hospital which literally makes me sad and idk how to describe the feeling but genuinely I was just afraid if I loose him :/

Backie ;)

So basically today Teacher Riza asked me and Putri to carry the books for her to 4K. As soon as I step in, I dont know their specific names because I was embarrassed to turn around but the boys were like "Diana Shipudden. Diana Shipudden" all the time which makes me think that Twitter is a very public place where everyone knows what you do and what you think. And I share every single thing on my Tumblr but yeah my Tumblr is somehow problematic sikit because I cant upload photos anymore and a few friends had found out about my Tumblr which is obviously suck because I freakingly need privacy :p So yeah, Im back to Blogger. Nobody actually knows about my blog. Muahahaha I mean like, they do know about it but they dont actually memorise the url and I told them that I was an inactive blogger so yeah. The only one who (maybe) memorise my blog is probably him.. But yeah.. I dont think that one day, he woke up and just think "I should check Diana's blog today" ha-ha no. That is so far than possible ^^ Btw Abang Rusydi gave me Rm2 as duit raya hahaha how cute 

Hi hello um well my sore throat is getting worst. Like seriously. Pedih gila nak mati. And Im not lying. I cant even talk ishhh and yeah my voice macam apa je. So just now masa tuition everyone keep asking me why do I look pale and so the opposite side of energetic. All this while Wafi and Norman keep passing me Mentos and 100plus and Clorex (Idk how to spell) so basically me and Rachy were most probably sugar high kot that's why we talk a lot and just laugh at everything hahaha Im not even sure whether everything is really funny or we're the only one who think that way muahahahaha okay okay actually masa kat tuition Wafi pulled my hair and said "Weh ni rambut kau" pastu dia macam tarik panjang panjang nak tahu how long my hair is so I was like "Bengong lah kau ni. Kau tak tau malu ke? Eee blah sekarang" Genuinely mad and pissed off. Urgh. Silly Annoying Wafi -.-

Hi, hello.... Bye

Umph hello! As for now Im getting ready for tuition. Not really feeling well. Migraine, sore throat and my nose lah as usual. The problem is, I dont really know what to talk about anymore. I mean like, the only person that I can act natural is with Putri, Dina, Syadni, Alini, Salma and Yasmin. That's all. Well I dont know why. And Im not even sure if I love him or not. I mean like, I do love him but I keep denying cause it's probably not worth it. Dude, he doesnt even care. I wonder if you actually stalk me every single day. Because if you do, you're kindly hurting your own self. I dont have the guts to stalk you, you know. Cause I dont want to get hurt. But still, I still got hurt because you arent here.. with me but who cares urghh nobody cares and perhaps I should stop caring too. Somebody teach me how to uncare and unlove someone who used to mean the world to us? I can stop thinking and start ignoring. But I can never stop caring about you... 

F you, Directioners

Im sorry for cursing. I hate cursing so much and I dont really curse but this thing really is getting on my nerves. Tbh I freakingly hate those effing stupid Directioners urghhh sumpah boodooooo eeee (soooorryyy) Fyi Red Album keluar masa 22 October 2012. Harry Styles and Taylor Swift punya relay confirmed masa 22 December 2012. Exactly 2 months after Red. How the hell lagu 'I Knew You Were Trouble' is about Harry Styles? She thanked her ex (John Mayer) for inspiring that song. Bukan Harry Styles. Because dorang break up 10 September. And Taylor kata IKYWT lagu last dia buat untuk that album. And you're telling me Taylor is a whore? Aha, mirror yourself lah gila. Kau tu bukan setakat whore. Tak waras pula tu eee dah lah suka 1D. Gayy. Eeee. And if you're reading Taylor's tabloid and believing every single thing they wrote about it. You should read Harry's tabloids too. That clearly shows how a total loser you are.  Stupid people. Stupid Directioners.

Today

I have no words to describe today. I mean like. It's not one of the best days and obviously not one of the worst days but today is just.. today  XD  Okay. So. I'll explain. You guys figure it out sendiri lah  :p  1. Kita rombak kelas pastu me, Syad, Dina and Put were in the same class which basically made my day at the first place  2. Tak ada cikgu masuk the whole day so as usual lah en, kitaorang macam gelak kuat gila bapak  &  tidur  &  main air  &  gaduh gaduh  3. Kitaorang stay back sampai tertidur dekat library pastu main air kat toilet Hahahaha  4. We made an agreement untuk compete dalam post trial ni Muahahahaha. Well maybe you guys tak faham kenapa harini special but yeah. Just, Im happy because finally all of us reunited after a long time terpaksa seperate. I miss you guys so much :') 

16th of August

I didnt have a good sleep last night. Slept at 0330 or something and woke up at 0737. So today is going to be a big day for me. Im going to confess to him. No matter in what form sekali pun. I just have to. I'll stop tipu diri sendiri cause it doesnt seems to work anymore. I love him.. But, does he feel the same? And I realized it was 16th of August. 16TH OF AUGUST! Man... It was his birthday. I was taken aback when I realized about that... I might ruin his birthday if I confess today. But I cant hold it anymore longer. Im afraid I might lose the chance. Is this even fated? Me and him? Like, after a sudden I decided to confess tomorrow and it turned out to be his birthday. Oh my god. 

28th of May

Hey yooo! Well I gotta remember this date. Had a great time with Adz and Syad as in our old times :') This is our first meeting and greeting after a half and a year fight XD Well. At first, kinda awkward ._. Soooo anyway, We went for a movie. Epic 3D. And guna spect tu as "SWAG" Hahahahhaaha! Then pergi keluar masuk Wangsa Walk. Jalan jalan. Makan A&W and MooCow. Menari kat Cold Storage (sampai ada mak cik India usha panas) Main bakul kat Cold Storage and Guardian. Main trolley XD Pergi 6D Motion and kita pilih movie paling scary "Death Room" Aaaaaaaaannnndddd yeah, I screamed louder than I thought I could X3 And because of that, everything became funnier. Syadni and Adz laughed so hard instead of screaming because of me. It was hilarious :p Dah lah tengah tersedu pastu jerit jerit kuat gila. Bayangkan ah XD My eyes were closed most of the time. But I was still the only one who screamed u.u Ye lah. 6D en? Sumpah real dengan hantu dia, dengan hujan dia, dengan angin ribut dia, dengan gegar gegar dia. Bapak ah :c But yeah, It was fun. I love you Adzatul. Just, thank you for everything :* 

Together, again

Hii! Sooo yeah. We're back. Hooray! XD Aaand. I hope things will get better. I hope we actually learnt something from this. Im glad that we're still meant for each other. Hihihi Alhamdulillah <3 The best part is, we get the chance to fall in love again. And we finally found a way back to love. I love you so :* Let's be together forever till Jannah :> Im happy knowing that everything I did is worth it. I hope that our love will remain the same. I hope that we can tolerate with each other's behavior better than dulu. Hahaha Sooo yeah. Byee!

Sekolah Ganti

Hi!! ^^ So that is me and one of my favourite junior, Syahira :) Thanks for the picture <3 Hmm Today is probably my "World Loner Day" kot :p Salma is absent, Nurina is absent and Yasmin is absent. lol XD Luckily ada Putri & Irdina :> So as I was saying. Nothing special really happened. It was damn boring. I shouldnt have sacrificed my sleep for anything like that anymore :p Hmm Soo my life is um.. Entah :p Biasa je kot. Complicated. Maybe? Dont really wanna talk about it. I just hope that those eyebags will fade as soon as possible. Segaaann :3 Dont get me wrong. Diana tak ada ah nangis pun. Just, entah lah. Lack of sleep kot? ._. Oh btw, I won the first place in 100m last thursday :DD 

Do blame me on everything

Assalamualaikum. Soo last night I couldnt fall asleep sebab sakit, and entah lah broken heart kot. So bila bangun pagi tadi macam penaaaat sangat lah. Kat kelas memang rasa nak pengsan je. Ya Allah~ Ada extra class, Then masa balik pula hujan lebat sampai kilat and ribut semua tu. Serious ni tak tipu au. Diana sorang je. Then Hadziq suruh balik dengan dia because it's dangerous kan. Atleast kalau apa apa jadi, ada saksi. Sooo yeah. I agreed. But at the same time, Diana macam rasa patut ke jalan patut ke :/ Because Diana takut dia marah. Tapi bila fikir pasal safety, Hmm. Entah lah~ And bila dah sampai rumah. Diana memang basah gila. blablabla tertidur kat living room. Tapi baju dah kering au before tu. Mum datang and maki maki, marah marah semua tu. I was so tired. Even letting my hair out is a thing to yell. Apa salah nya kalau taknak ikat rambut? Apa salah nya tertidur kat sofa? Apa salah nya solat pakai baju sekolah? 

New version of me :)

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Assalamualaikum! xx Weeeee~ Finally Diana dah okay :3 and harini sumpah hyper gila sampai kena tweet limit 2 kali. Hahahaha! Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah <3 Then makan mcd and tako tao. Hahahaha Kenyaaannggg~ Sooo That is basically the new me :) Im wearing a bigger shawl, long muslimah t-shirt, socks and handsocks :D Isnt that great? Masa first time Diana pakai macam ni satu family Diana macam terkejut lah. Lagi lagi kawan. Hahahaha! Agak malu juga lah~ Tapi bila fikir balik, kenapa nak malu. Kita buat benda yang betul kan? :> Well. Im not actually 100% move on pun. Diana still ada feelings kat dia. But I'll just keep it to myself. Diana tak akan buat apa apa lagi dah. Kalau ada jodoh. Ada lah tu. Allah has his own plan <3 I'll have you back when the time is right. Love you, hun :}

Embarrassed

Mellow! :3 Soo literally. I was helping Nurina to get her a Mihun Soup. Pastu kat situ macam crowded gila. And I was trying to reach for fork and spoon tau. As soon as dah dapat. Without knowing that there's actually someone behind me, Diana terus pusing and terlanggar dia. Terlanggar memang betul betul terlanggar lah. Sampai dahi Diana dekat takat atas perut dia. TINGGI GILAAA!!! It's like macam terpeluk au. Cuma tak wrap tangan je. But Diana buat tak tahu je lah and sorok muka tau. Astaghfirullah.. Diana terus lari keluar daripada situ untuk tengok siapa dia. Im like, MALU NYAAA!!! YA ALLAH!! T^T I was hoping that dia taktahu yang itu Diana. But masa balik.. Dia stare kat Diana lama gila, pastu terus pecut motor dia u.u 

No one deserves to be treated like a shit. Yeap. No one. Except, me? ... My brain told me to say how I really felt. How I cried about little things he says and how deep it leaves scars on my heart. But I've lost everyone that I love. And I dont wanna lose you too. Even if it's painful. I just have to hold it. I just have to forgive and forget everything. Everything that hurts me. Because he's the only one that I got. I love him so much. I felt stupid for begging him to answer my calls and reply my text. The longer the phone rang, the more I cry.. And when it reached the voice mails...  :/  I, ..... dk anymore..... It kills me when you leave me hanging like this. Especially, we get into a fight. Instead of solving it, you rather leaving me alone. Do you know how feels like? It's like a your heart just dropped, and breaks into a million tiny pieces that stabbed your body. But you're still there, Trying to get up. Even nobody's gonna help. 

2 Cekal 2012

Annyeong! ^^ I kinda miss my old classmate :') I miss all the laugh and mischievous stuff we did together <3 Well, :P Currently, Im in 3Cekal :3 Yeeeaahhh~ Aaannddd.. Everyone was like.. soooo.. polite, and studios ._. DAMN AWKWARDD!!!! Luckily Im in the same class with my bestfriends :'D If not, :O Urrgghh~ I dont know what to do x_x Anyways, Wish me luck for PMR :) PRAY FOR ME TO OBTAIN STRAIGHT A'S <3

 AminAminAminAminAminAminAmin

New Year ^^Y

Yo! ^^ It's a little bit too late but, hell yeah! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :D Bytheway, School is awesome. Relationship is awesome. And Friendship is awesome. Too XD Cool ^~^ We're all in the same class except for Irdina :< The best thing is, Im fifteen now!! :3 Hohohoho! Soon I'll be sixteen! And seventeen! And eighteen! OHMYGOSH I CAN GET MARRIED!! :OO CANT BELIEVE IM OLD NOW :') So what? Getting old is good XD And Im still pretty excited :>