2015

Assalamualaikum! After so many moons haha Im finally back!! Who knows that this would be my last year of school? 

Well people come and go. I wont lie. I do miss him but now, I can finally face the fact that he's living a wonderful life, I should let him go. He's doing very well. It's a good thing. As for me, :D Im alive. I can finally see things in a whole different perspective. Thank you for coming into my life once upon a time. You had taught me a lot ^^

Hi. It's been a while haha. And somehow, he's still the one.

My credit expired today so I cant really reply his message. But yeah, even if my credit tak expired pun, I dont think I will actually reply because um I dont know what to say. I mean like how am I going to respond to that? "Okay weh. Thanks" that's all? But what if I reply a little bit longer? Im afraid he'll see it in a different way, for example "Okay weh. Thanks. Kalau kau kisah, kau orang first wish. Credit aku expired ah semalam" 

Happy Birthday to who? Me?

Yeah. It's ma freaking birthday nigga. Well um he's the first one yang wish but dia guna "weh" and "ko" and I just ..................... got friend-zoned. But whatever. Izz was the second one and later on terus banyak gila orang wish on Twitter, kat dm, kat Line, kat Wechat, and some even made me a video XD Im just so excited. But yeah I reached the tweet limit so it's kinda sucks. Urghh. And my bestfriends werent there. I dont know what are they up to but pfft yeah. I just know that today is going to be asdfghjkl. Even though he did but idk I dont feel anything anymore. The fact that he's not in Malaysia kinda makes me feel a little bit more happier. Idk why. Im not happy but atleast Im not sad. I miss him but, I wont let him ruin my so called special day. But yeah, I cant believe Im crying........ 

What time do you usually go to sleep?

I. Dont. Know. I mean like, I dont have any solid answer. But what I can tell is after 2 o'clock lah. And perhaps tonight I'm not going to sleep kot? Because for now, I feel like no one actually gives a damn shit about what you think and how you really feel. All that matters is you, and only you. Im listening to Story of my life by Two Worlds. I dont know why am I even mentioning that but yeah whatever I am so pissed off by everyone haha lol not really. Im just idk. I hate myself. I will always be the one who loves someone with all my heart and yeah whatever. Someday, Im going to find someone who is worth all of this pain. Maybe aku memang bukan siapa siapa kot in this world? Im always going to be that one person yang invisible je. Even kat rumah. Idk. Oh my god I hate this feeling T^T I just.. I dont want to cry. 

What is the most important thing in being a good friend?

Idk. A lot of things maybe? Trust. Honesty. Patience. I cant say much but do what you want people to do to you. I think all those good qualities are very important. Anddd I would love to if my friends are a little bit more macam idk how to explain tapi macam haha haih susah gila nak put into words tapi macam more caring ah. Yes. Caring. Finally dapat juga word tu haha. Well yeah, as I was saying. My friends macam lebih care pasal their own personal things lah so yeah whatever haha. I kinda need them so badly right now because umm Im kinda sad and yeah pfft. I need them to comfort me. Tomorrow is going to be a big day for me so yeah, I want them here. Tipu lah kalau taknak dia (pidot) ada kat sini. But atleast I had my friends is more than enough kot. Tapi entahlah. I felt lonely more than ever!

What are the things you want to avoid in a relationship?

Most probably break up. Becauusee, for me lah kan. I think it's healthy when a couple fights. But when it comes to break up. lol. I think that is the worst part ever. Tbh relationship without fighting memang boring gila nak mati. I swear. Because you guys will be like ''happy'' all the time but actually no. Memanglah happy but somehow boring gila nak mati. Well that is my opinion and my experience lah. Idk bout you guys but yeah, a relationship with any ups and downs is a total asdfghjkl